Having participated in a week of research last summer, I am not particularly concerned about managing my reactions. Though I personally had visceral reactions to many of their statements and beliefs, I was able to maintain a stoicism about me. Overall, the experience really allowed me to engage with others, who may seem to be a bit difficult, and build a sense of comfort and familiarity.

Looking back, one interview that humanized members of the church for me was with Ben Phelps, who is on the right in the back row of the attached picture below. We had navigated to the topic of the recognizable slogan “God Hates F*gs” and I could feel myself begin to sweat. I became very nervous, as I expected the discussion to be an indirect attack on me and my existence. Although in some ways I felt that it was, Ben seemed to be somewhat respectful in doing so and opened up about his own discomfort with using words that could be perceived as derogatory. I was surprised to see this side of a member of the church, and am grateful to have experienced it.

Looking forward, I have no fears in masking my reactions to various claims made by members of the church. I am a little bit nervous as to whether or not I’ll make a normative claim, but I know with practice, I’ll be able to get back into the swing of things. I’d reiterate what Margaret said, in that if you feel the need to express an opinion that would be normative, do so outside of the premises of the church, the members’ homes, etc. Finally, I’m excited to see interviewees from the last trip, and to get to know the stories of others in the church this time!

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