{"id":4129,"date":"2026-08-16T17:12:52","date_gmt":"2026-08-16T17:12:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/?page_id=4129"},"modified":"2026-08-27T20:32:34","modified_gmt":"2026-08-27T20:32:34","slug":"alzheimers-by-wheeler-light","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/alzheimers-by-wheeler-light\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cAlzheimer\u2019s\u201d by Wheeler Light"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Is my dad\u2019s hand my dad\u2019s hand?<br>Does he know it is his hand?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">When I bring him a coffee<br>and he picks it up with his hand<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">does he know it is his coffee<br>when it is in his mouth?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Are the family photos of his family?<br>When he wakes up wandering the halls<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">asking where the bathroom is<br>and he is brought back to his room<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and ushered into the bathroom,<br>is it his bathroom? When I reach<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">for my father\u2019s hand, it is not to hold it.<br>I tell him to <em>Squeeze<\/em> and he squeezes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">When I feel how much looser his grip<br>has got, I ask if he has been eating.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The plate in front of him, is it his food?<br>When I remind him of his life story,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">is it his life? When I sit next to him<br>on his twin bed showing him photos<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">of his children, they must be his children.<br>When I tell him I am his child, he nods<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and says <em>That\u2019s nice. I\u2019m glad you came.<\/em><br>When he asks my name, I give him my name.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It becomes his name. He rolls it around<br>in his mouth. <em>W-h-e-e-l-e-r<\/em> he breathes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It is a good name, his name.<br>I hold his hand while he says my name.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">His hand could be called withered<br>while I hold it. Holding his hand<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">has nothing to do with his hand.<br>Holding my father\u2019s hand is largely<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">an understanding of my name.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\" \/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong><em>Wheeler Light<\/em><\/strong><em> received his MFA in writing poetry from University of Virginia and lives in Denver, CO. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in <\/em>New England Review, Western Humanities Review, Inscape<em>, and <\/em>Rattle<em>, among other publications. You can find his work at <\/em><a href=\"http:\/\/www.wheelerlight.net\"><em>www.wheelerlight.net<\/em><\/a><em>.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Is my dad\u2019s hand my dad\u2019s hand?Does he know it is his hand? When I bring him a coffeeand he picks it up with his hand does he know it is his coffeewhen it is in his mouth? Are the family photos of his family?When he wakes up wandering the halls asking where the bathroom &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/alzheimers-by-wheeler-light\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;\u201cAlzheimer\u2019s\u201d by Wheeler Light&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9568,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-4129","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/4129","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/9568"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4129"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/4129\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4183,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/4129\/revisions\/4183"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4129"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}