{"id":2979,"date":"2023-04-27T19:54:11","date_gmt":"2023-04-27T19:54:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/?page_id=2979"},"modified":"2023-04-27T19:54:11","modified_gmt":"2023-04-27T19:54:11","slug":"self-assessment-by-bee-lb","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/self-assessment-by-bee-lb\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;Self-Assessment&#8221; by BEE LB"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<pre class=\"wp-block-verse\"><em>after Molly Brodak<\/em>\n\nFear, or a steel jaw underbrush. Love, or \nthe undeniable urge to touch flesh \nto flame. I am nothing \nif not searching for more. More, meaning \nthe weight I am capable of carrying. The boundaries \nI constantly test. The limits I have not reached. \nA body is mainly something to strain \nagainst. If I have learned anything \nit is the surety needed to walk the tightrope \nof selfhood. It is to disappear \nthe net beneath me. I remain \nunbound. When I ask for help, I take \nits gentle denial as permission \nto make a bed with the worst of myself. \nThe worst of myself being made entirely of guilt. \nGuilt, or the heft of a hand wrapped around a \nthroat. A, meaning my. I learned, or \nwas taught what it meant to be a burden. \nA mouth to feed. A love to bear. Now, I am unlearning\nhow I shaped myself as result. Dizzying the world\nin the search for distance. An upturned wrist. A voice\npitched high. The edges of life softening\ninto something like a cradle. A basin holding no \nreflection. Help, a way out, or through.\nI no longer ask a question \nif I am scared to hear the answer.<\/pre>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:100px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>BEE LB<\/strong> is an array of letters, bound to impulse; a writer creating delicate connections. they have called any number of places home; currently, a single yellow wall in Michigan. they have been published in FOLIO, Roanoke Review, and Figure 1, among others. their portfolio can be found at twinbrights.carrd.co<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>after Molly Brodak Fear, or a steel jaw underbrush. Love, or the undeniable urge to touch flesh to flame. I am nothing if not searching for more. More, meaning the weight I am capable of carrying. The boundaries I constantly test. The limits I have not reached. A body is mainly something to strain against. &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/self-assessment-by-bee-lb\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;&#8220;Self-Assessment&#8221; by BEE LB&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2310,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-2979","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/2979","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2310"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2979"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/2979\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/oxmag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2979"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}