{"id":671,"date":"2018-02-09T09:47:01","date_gmt":"2018-02-09T14:47:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/edt431-531\/?p=671"},"modified":"2018-02-09T09:47:01","modified_gmt":"2018-02-09T14:47:01","slug":"diary-of-a-wimpy-teacher","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/exemplary-science-teaching\/2018\/02\/diary-of-a-wimpy-teacher\/","title":{"rendered":"Diary of a Wimpy Teacher"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m curious to know how many people have a diary.<\/p>\n<p>It doesn&#8217;t have to be a physical one, with fluffy pink edging and &#8220;MADDIE&#8217;S JOURNAL&#8221; written across in giant, sparkly letters (though, if there are any Maddie&#8217;s who have that, props to you).\u00a0 But for example, my journal consists of a bunch of random Word documents all titled different variations of &#8220;My Life is in Shambles Part ___&#8221;.\u00a0 I have friends who journal their thoughts right in the middle of their school notes, people who jot them on their phone, people who have a discreet notebook you wouldn&#8217;t *think* is a diary but it totally is (I&#8217;m on to you.\u00a0 You can&#8217;t hide forever).<\/p>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.scaryforkids.com\/pics\/pink-diary.jpg\" alt=\"Image result for pink diary\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Regardless, I think everyone should have a diary.<\/p>\n<p>Some way to vent about feelings, process through events, record what was going on in your day so in the future, you can go back and say, &#8220;Oh yeah!\u00a0 I remember when this happened.\u00a0 It was really hard but I made it through.&#8221;\u00a0 The best journals (in my humble opinion) are the ones where you write stream of conscious&#8211;true, pure honesty as to what&#8217;s going on in your head.\u00a0 Journaling is key to getting everything somewhat out in the open, somewhere besides inside your noggin, so you don&#8217;t go completely insane.<\/p>\n<p>And as a future educator, I&#8217;d like to propose that everyone who is planning on being a teacher should keep a first year diary.<\/p>\n<blockquote class=\"twitter-tweet\" data-width=\"500\" data-dnt=\"true\">\n<p lang=\"en\" dir=\"ltr\">Teaching: How to Survive Your First Year as a Teacher <a href=\"https:\/\/t.co\/fKi8r7yjFl\">https:\/\/t.co\/fKi8r7yjFl<\/a> <a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/hashtag\/lifehacks?src=hash&amp;ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw\">#lifehacks<\/a><\/p>\n<p>&mdash; Gaurav Jain (@gauravcam) <a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/gauravcam\/status\/961904825423355904?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw\">February 9, 2018<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><script async src=\"https:\/\/platform.twitter.com\/widgets.js\" charset=\"utf-8\"><\/script><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I recently read a journal article entitled, &#8220;Creating Professional Identity: Dilemmas and Metaphors of a First-Year Chemistry Teacher&#8221; by Mark Volkmann and Maria Anderson.\u00a0 These authors basically did the thing all of us diary-keepers dread&#8211;they\u00a0<em>analyzed\u00a0<\/em>a first year teacher&#8217;s diary.\u00a0 Why, you may ask?\u00a0 Because they&#8217;re scientists.\u00a0 And scientists analyze everything&#8211;trees, molecules, behavior, and apparently, diaries.<\/p>\n<p>But in this case, I was actually pretty grateful for these wacko scientists who exposed &#8220;Maria&#8221;, the first year teacher with a whole bunch o&#8217; problems.\u00a0 The study broke it down into three major dilemmas Maria faced, and three solutions for those dilemmas.\u00a0 As someone who&#8217;s getting ready to go into the classroom, this was incredibly relatable, and I&#8217;m hoping you&#8217;ll agree.\u00a0 But for those of you who don&#8217;t want to read the whole thing, here&#8217;s a breakdown of what it was all about:<\/p>\n<p><strong>Dilemma #1: Student Face\/Adult Face<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Maria faced the problem all of us students are eventually going to&#8211;the transition from student to teacher.\u00a0 Internally, she still felt like a student, but externally everyone saw her as a teacher.\u00a0 She struggled to dress the part and act the part, because she felt like she was faking the whole thing, constantly stuck between two identities and not knowing where her place was. #Adulting was not her thing.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Resolution:\u00a0<\/strong>Being a Role Model.\u00a0 Maria found that the thing that helped most in establishing herself as an adult was seeing herself as a role model for the students.\u00a0 Having students look up to her and want to talk with her or ask for help made her realize that she was having an\u00a0<em>impact.<\/em>\u00a0 The power of this feeling of purpose was enough to resolve the internal battle Maria was struggling with.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/shirtoid.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/Adulting-101.jpg?ssl=1\" alt=\"Image result for adulting\" \/><\/p>\n<p><strong>Dilemma #2: Caring Face\/Tough Face<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>All of the older teachers advised Maria to &#8220;start tough, get nicer&#8221;.\u00a0 But Maria felt that wasn&#8217;t necessary&#8211;she was so desperate to be liked by her students that she wanted to show them right off the bat how caring she was.\u00a0 This caused problems as the year went on, because she was constantly balancing being a teacher everyone liked and being a teacher everyone respected.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Resolution:\u00a0<\/strong>Balancing Caring and Control.\u00a0 Maria finally admitted that the advice from older teachers was right&#8211;she should have started out tough to gain student respect, and gotten nicer as the year went on.\u00a0 In the end, Maria hadn&#8217;t really come to a solid resolution on this one like she had for the first dilemma, showing that classroom management is a struggle that goes beyond the first year.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><strong>Dilemma #3: Chemistry is Easy Face\/Chemistry is Difficult Face<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Maria went into education because she loved teaching.\u00a0 Unfortunately, though she chose chemistry (long story short, she was on track for a pre-med chemistry degree and then last minute decided to switch), she did\u00a0<em>not\u00a0<\/em>love the subject.\u00a0 And as a first year teacher, this posed a significant struggle, because she lacked confidence in the area she was teaching.\u00a0 She continuously tried to impose this image of &#8220;I&#8217;m definitely a chemistry expert and I definitely know what I&#8217;m doing&#8221;, even though she felt like this was absolutely not true.<\/li>\n<li><strong>Resolution:\u00a0<\/strong>Re-Evaluating the Fantasy Image of Teaching.\u00a0 The reality is, your first year of teaching is not this &#8220;fantasy&#8221; you expect it to be.\u00a0 Sure, Maria wanted to teach chemistry like it had never been taught before, replace the bad experience she had in high school with a new one for her students.\u00a0 But unfortunately, she just didn&#8217;t know the content enough to effectively teach her students *everything*&#8211;and no one does.\u00a0 Maria needed to embrace where she was at, and accept that teaching is not a fantasy.\u00a0 We are going to make mistakes, fall short, and journey along with our students.\u00a0 We&#8217;re learning as much as they are.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/studentblogs.le.ac.uk\/management\/files\/2017\/09\/Education-is-a-journey.jpg\" alt=\"Image result for education journey\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Overall, the theme of Maria&#8217;s diary seemed to be an internal struggle between being a professional and being herself&#8211;the carefree, likable student she had always been.\u00a0 Developing a professional identity in the first year of teaching is a concern many future teachers have, myself included.\u00a0 And the reality is, our professional identity is made up of every aspect of teaching&#8211;what we know about teaching, what we know about the subject, and what we know about interacting and caring for students.<\/p>\n<p>So what I&#8217;ve learned?\u00a0 First year teaching is rough, and it&#8217;s supposed to be.\u00a0 Keep a diary so you don&#8217;t go insane, and embrace the mess&#8211;ups and downs.<\/p>\n<p>Volkmann, M., Anderson, M. (1997).\u00a0\u00a0<em>Creating Professional Identity: Dilemmas and Metaphors of a First-Year Chemistry Teacher.\u00a0\u00a0<\/em>Department of Curriculum and Instruction, Purdue University.\u00a0 Published in the Science Education Journal.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<div class=\"mh-excerpt\"><p>I&#8217;m curious to know how many people have a diary. 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