{"id":2285,"date":"2019-05-02T03:52:28","date_gmt":"2019-05-02T07:52:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/edt431-531\/?p=2285"},"modified":"2019-05-02T16:46:38","modified_gmt":"2019-05-02T20:46:38","slug":"the-quiet-kids-struggle-to-be-a-teacher","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sites.miamioh.edu\/exemplary-science-teaching\/2019\/05\/the-quiet-kids-struggle-to-be-a-teacher\/","title":{"rendered":"The Quiet Kid’s Struggle to be a Teacher"},"content":{"rendered":"

Teacher:<\/strong><\/p>\n

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I feel like I’m always looking at my teachers and peers in awe of something I’m missing. Something everyone’s got that I don’t.<\/p>\n

Teachers are confident<\/p>\n

Teachers are set<\/p>\n

Teachers are influential<\/p>\n

Teachers are reputable<\/p>\n

Teachers are respected<\/em><\/p>\n

Then there’s me:<\/p>\n

From living life, I wouldn’t describe myself as any of these. I’m more of a reserved person, an observer, someone who often speaks last, if ever. Being slow to speech often hinders my ability to be looked to as a source of knowledge. I notice it in every classroom I’m a part of; every group setting I’m in.<\/p>\n

In addition to being on the quieter side, I also have a history of being super self-critical and often self-deprecating, even when most of the time, it’s not even true. I often find myself saying things that come across as me having no idea what I’m doing or me not putting effort forth which is usually a lie.<\/p>\n

The ratio of self-deprecation to actual words said is frankly out of line. This contrast often results in (school) peers viewing me as an inferior student, or someone who doesn’t take pride in what they do which equates to a lack of respect. This has been my struggle in field and anytime I have a spotlight. I throw it away in such a manner that it isn’t offered to me again.<\/p>\n

Where It Stems From:<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Reflection is super important for most professionals but few more so than teacher. We can all agree on that, I’m sure.\u00a0 It helps us determine where we’re going from where we’ve been.<\/p>\n

I firmly believe that my affect is a learned behavior. I come from an upbringing that resulted in an ACE score of 6(that I found out from our last topic), with abuse and neglect being dominant components. I never had the chances to talk and a good portion of the talking I did resulted in negative conditioning. I’m aware of this and I take this with me during most of all of my days.<\/p>\n

Where I’m Going:<\/strong><\/p>\n

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My time at Miami has given me such a larger scope of teaching and life experiences. I think by just being an education major demands a lot of stepping up and I’ve watched myself grow over the years. If you struggle with teaching in a similar vein as mine, here’s a list of quick tips I’ve found:<\/p>\n